2018: the year of self love and self care

so it is officially 2018. and i can truly say that I had a wonderful 2017. as i sit here and reflect on the past 365 days, i remember growth and new beginnings. in 2017: i turned 18, which to be honest felt no different than 17 lol

i saw my favorite broadway show, The Lion King

i graduated high school..about time!!

i was awarded 2016-2017 Dancer of the Year

i got a new job as a dance instructor

i moved out of my parents’ house and got my own apartment

i started college and my first semester was great, can i say 4.0?

so all in all i had a blessed year. of course, with the new year brings new beginnings. i  also cut all my hair off. it was very rewarding for me. i’ve always wanted to be natural because i hate perms so much. and finally, at the age of 18, i cut off my permed hair. it means more to me than people know. for me, it symbolizes me becoming my own woman and developing self. i’m anxious for this natural journey. i have so much to learn. but I’m ready. ready to learn patience, which is something i struggle with. i’m ready for the discipline, perseverance, and commitment to myself. so, me cutting my hair had nothing to do with me just cutting my hair. i feel more free! but enough about my hair! i’m also excited for the lessons, blessings and growth in 2018. this year i vow to focus on self; self love and self care. i am one who struggles with the idea of myself by myself. i have always been surrounded by friends or family. so, when i’m alone it is a bit awkward for me. i hate it. it’s like i have to always have someone around to feel okay.  it’s not necessarily the healthiest way to be, and in 2018 i want to work on changing that. as i said earlier, i started college in 2017. my first semester went great academically, but socially? not so much! i met so many new people, people who i thought I could find a close friendship in. but it never happened. at school, the only friend i have is my boyfriend. this made me question myself. was something wrong with me? and come to find out, there wasn’t. as i ended 2017 and talked to my mother, father, and nanny, i realized something. God puts certain people in your life for a reason. He also doesn’t put certain people in your life for a reason. God has a purpose for me and He doesn’t want me to get distracted. i will make friends eventually, but i have a mission i must complete. whatever mission God has me on, during this part of the mission, i am to have zero distractions. now, i feel a little bit better about my social situation. 

i’ve never been a new year’s resolution type of person, but i think my “resolution” to work on self love and self care will be meaningful to me. so bring it on 2018!! i am ready for you and i am ready for me!!

— AM 🌼